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Friday 28 September 2012

Seriously?!

With everything that’s been going on, I’ve slipped back to old habits. No, eating has been okay, exercise has been okay but neither have been great.

I’ve been using every excuse under the sun.

It’s too cold.
It’s too hot.
It’s too early.
It’s too late.
I can’t be bothered.
I don’t have time.

Who gave the excuses permission to come back? Why am I resorting to old bad habits?

Seriously?!

I’ve spent the better part of this year banishing excuses from my life, erasing the victim mentality that is so common these days and trying to build new and better habits. Have I seriously undone all this work in a matter of weeks?

Yep, I’m struggling. There’s no point hiding it or sugar coating it or giving it another name. With every post I write I feel focussed, back in control and like I’m on the verge of success again. Then by the time night falls it’s like it’s all forgotten.

I could blame this on having so-called friends accuse me of not being a friend, I could blame this on job uncertainties, I could blame this on budget constraints, hell I could blame this on the weather. Regardless of what is happening in my life, there is neither excuse nor reason for not looking after myself. Convincing me that there they’re valid is only deceiving myself.

This is the part of the post where I would normally promise to move the world and re-align the stars and change everything but quite frankly, I’m sick of not delivering on my promises. I will continue to work towards being able to be honest and committed but no more promises are to be made and broken.

If anyone else has gone through this and been successful, I would greatly appreciate your input….

3 comments:

  1. I'm going through this at the moment.

    I seem to be super tired all the time which is stopping me from getting up early and exercising. I think the way around it is how best can you make yourself accountable? Can you come here or on facebook and say everyday I did my workout or I ate well today. Maybe starting a habit of letting us know if you had a good day at the end of each day would keep yo uon track?

    Best of luck.
    xx

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  2. Just put one foot in front of the other and go back to basics. Do one thing at a time and stop trying to fix it all at once. Control the things in your control and let the others happen as they will.

    Rejoice in your successes, no matter how small - they are there.

    Stop punishing yourself, because life has gotten a little complicated.

    So what you let things slip, you are human, my friend it happens to the best of us - even if they dont show it.

    You need to look after numero uno and focus on what you want - whatever that is and shut the naysayers and negatives out of your life for a while.

    A wise woman told me the ones who are truly your firends will be there no matter what and they will eb and are!

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  3. I know exactly how you feel. I've been struggling too. I'm thinking of changing to Lean and Strong because my knee is effecting my running. :(
    A change may be as good as a holiday. Come to the beach!!!
    You can always stay over....

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