With everything that’s been going on, I’ve slipped back to old habits. No, eating has been okay, exercise has been okay but neither have been great.
I’ve been using every excuse under the sun.
It’s too cold.
It’s too hot.
It’s too early.
It’s too late.
I can’t be bothered.
I don’t have time.
Who gave the excuses permission to come back? Why am I resorting to old bad habits?
I’ve spent the better part of this year banishing excuses from my life, erasing the victim mentality that is so common these days and trying to build new and better habits. Have I seriously undone all this work in a matter of weeks?
Yep, I’m struggling. There’s no point hiding it or sugar coating it or giving it another name. With every post I write I feel focussed, back in control and like I’m on the verge of success again. Then by the time night falls it’s like it’s all forgotten.
I could blame this on having so-called friends accuse me of not being a friend, I could blame this on job uncertainties, I could blame this on budget constraints, hell I could blame this on the weather. Regardless of what is happening in my life, there is neither excuse nor reason for not looking after myself. Convincing me that there they’re valid is only deceiving myself.
This is the part of the post where I would normally promise to move the world and re-align the stars and change everything but quite frankly, I’m sick of not delivering on my promises. I will continue to work towards being able to be honest and committed but no more promises are to be made and broken.
If anyone else has gone through this and been successful, I would greatly appreciate your input….